Trying to get back into the swing of things

Friends,

I’m still alive. My mom’s surgery went well, which is always a good thing. She feels a lot better, and should be going back to work on Monday.

I’ve been kept busy with school and well, school. I need to restructure my time so that I can return to writing regularly. I know I always say that but I know how much writing helps me process things and figure things out, I should really do what I can this Lent to try and write somewhat regularly.

Spiritually, there is a lot going on. A lot of transitions in terms of emotional and mental health, especially since I’m getting married in October. A lot more responsibilities are coming, and my initial reaction is to freak out. Once I’m done freaking out, I can get myself pulled together to take a realistic look at life and what is going to change, how it’s going to change, and see if there’s ways that I can somehow make that change easier.

Another thing that is causing some introspection is that tomorrow (March 1st) is my 25th birthday. There are a lot of things that I’m just simply too old for, or have come to the realization that I don’t have unlimited amounts of energy to expend on certain things, like Drama. I simply cannot devote that much energy to stuff that can be easily resolved. I just need to keep on moving on, do what I need to do, and be done with it. While 25 may not be the Super Wisdom Filled Age, I’m coming to the realization that some things really aren’t worth getting worked up over, and some things are. I guess I need to pick my battles wisely.

Although it is looking already that this birthday is the most Catholic birthday I’ve had to date. I am now the much grateful, very happy owner of the four volume Liturgy of the Hours (:-O) from a very generous friend. My fiance ordered me a Douay-Rheims Bible, much to my joy. Gifts are always nice, but my friends and family are probably the best gift a girl could ask for. There are some notable people in my life who have done a fab job on sticking by me no matter what; and I am entirely grateful to them.

Just like I need to pick my battles wisely and stay far, far away from Drama; priorities are shifting and things are changing. I’m trying to keep my head and my heart with Our Lord as much as possible, although it’s a work in progress that won’t be completed until I die. But, I need to really accept that it’s okay to be a work in progress. Sometimes I get too independent and too caught up in doing my own thing, when I need to look around me and remember who is around on this earth and in Heaven to help me. And I also need to remember that, in the eternal span of things; a lot of things aren’t really worth getting worked up over. Fr. L always tells me that I need to remember the “eternal span of things”, and I think I’m understanding what he means by that.

Heavy introspection aside, it’s time to go to bed.

Pax!!