The semester has ended, I’ve moved out of my dorm room, I’ve attended my fiance’s sister’s graduation from college … I’ve been a busy, and tired girl as of late.
Through the grace and help of God, as well as a little help from St. Thomas Aquinas and St. Joe of Cupertino; I passed all my classes spectacularly. I ended up getting a 3.75 GPA, which is just awesome. I’m not sure how in depth I’ve discussed my scholastic issues here, but needless to say; getting a 3.75 is a Major Big Deal. In short: before I was medicated for my restless legs syndrome, the highest GPA was I achieving was a little over a 2.5, if I was lucky. Granted, I was medicated for my RLS and began RCIA in the same year, so I’m sure being medicated is not the only factor in my grade turnaround.
But, praise the Lord; my 3.75 GPA not only is an accomplishment of a goal I’ve been wanting to accomplish since 2002; it also puts me on the Dean’s List. Why am I going on and on and on about my GPA here? In my Catholic weblog?
Ah ha, ahahahahahaha; the secret to getting good grades is as follows: study hard, pray harder, trust God entirely.
Funny what happens when those three things are done. I still have issues trusting God, just like I have issues trusting people. But, I’m getting better. I don’t expect God to be the Big Vending Machine in the Sky – “name it and claim it” theology. God can do whatever He wants with me. This entire semester has been a trial, trying to plan the wedding and dealing with people being goofs about the engagement, as well as getting through my classes, studying, taking exams, dealing with Anthropology research, feeling alienated in my own family … we all have our laundry lists of pain. If there was any semester that I needed to really just abandon all to God, it would be this semester.
I like to say that I perfectly abandoned myself to Him, but well; I didn’t. But, at least I knew that I had to trust God entirely, or as entirely as my human nature and imperfect self can.
I did the best I could, and I think that’s about all God really wanted from me. I think that’s about all He wants from me – to do the best I can, and He’ll fill in what I lack.
So, my GPA and Dean’s List accomplishment was a lesson in studying, but more importantly; a lesson in trusting. I can only hope and pray that the Good Lord helps me to trust Him further, through whatever means He sees fit.
