Revisiting an old theme

I feel like the wind has been sucked out of me. Not so much a lifeless feeling, but more a feeling of one wind leaving and a wind of a different direction coming. However, I’m not entirely sure where that wind is going to point me.

I guess that’s a contributing factor as to why posting has been light over here. Not to mention a lot of stuff to do regarding the wedding (mainly little details). I still have internet access, but a lot of it is ‘out of sight, out of mind’.

Not that this silence is a bad thing, I’ve been filling the blank with spending time with my fiance and reading — a lot. I finished “Story of a Soul” and am beginning (again) “The Imitation of Christ”. Just trying to sort things out.

Although, there is one situation that is a constant theme here, that I’ve probably beat well into the ground and doesn’t really need anymore elaboration. But I’ll continue to wail on it: dealing with some family members. I know I’ve said that I’m frustrated about all this, and rest assured; I am praying. It’s coping that’s the hard part. Dynamics have changed and people complain but don’t do anything to change a situation. I feel like I have to hide the fact that I’m Catholic because of so many people being nasty and rude, and explaining to me what ‘real’ Christians believe and don’t believe in. I’m tired of walking on eggshells and tip-toeing around everyone else because I don’t want to make them feel poor, but comments are made that makes me feel what I’m trying to avoid for them. Perhaps I should just give up and stop caring, but it’s my family. If it were anyone else, I’d be right fine to just cut ties, simply to preserve charity on both ends. It’s not because there’s some sort of clause in the Apostle’s Creed that says I must only associate with Catholics (I guess though there’s a clause in some other apostle’s creed that forbids associations with any and all things Catholic). But since it’s my family, things are different.

I reckon I should stop my whining, since other people have it worse than I do when it comes to non-Catholic family members. I’m just nearing a point of having a break down. :/